Cowgirls (just change it to a story to make it fun)

Bam! Bam! As dust flies everywhere from the mud road, creating a blur scene. Two girls appear out of nowhere, they ran fast without stopping, they slid behind a bundle of hay. 'Alice! She gone yet?' the brown hat lady with long wavy brown hair asked. Alice, her curly blonde hair tied up in a ponytail with a black hat on peeps through the hay. Her blue eyes scan the mud road, 'Don't know, but I think we lost her'. The brown hat lady sigh in relieved, she squeezed her revolver hard and fumbled with the bullets. She reload her revolver fast and slam the cylinder shut. 'Sweet gun, G', Alice said admiringly. 'Thanks, my dad gave it to me', G said, 'I hate using guns but, I must say, this is fun'. Alice scan the mud road again, 'Here she comes!' she whisper loudly to G, her hands touching her holsters, ready to redraw her gun.

Clattering sounds of horse hooves could be heard, but none could be seen. 'Are you sure? I bet she can't even sit on a horse' G chuckled. Alice held the grip of her gun steadily, ready to fire. Out from the mud road cam Danielle followed by Abby behind. They rode on their horse hard, sprinting all the way down. They jump down from their horse professionally and ran into a little pub, while their horse kept going on. 'Come on!' Alice shouted pulling G along, they too ran into the little pub. 'She's gone?' G said panting, she shoved her revolver into her holster. 'Duck you fools!' Abby yelled. Alice and G crouch low as they edge their way to Abby and Danielle. 'I thought you got into trouble,' G said nodding to Danielle. 'You crazy? I am no amateur,' Danielle answered, she twirled her gun trying to show that she is no amateur. Abby smirked at her while G was awe by Danielle professional twirling.

The floor board creaks, the girls fell silent, their heartbeat thumped harder, as if it is going to jumped out from their chest. The girls held their breathed, a shadow slowly formed at the door way, the black shiny boots appear. The tall black hair girl with a shorter brown hair girl appeared. 'Erin...Ellie..,' Alice said with a sigh of relieved. 'What the **** is happening?' Erin said angrily. 'Yeah! What's with the dust flying everywhere?' Ellie added, putting a straw in her mouth. With their nervousness, they haven't notice an old man with a white beard staring at them, his mouth drop opened with fear. 'Howdy....Six beers please,' Alice smiled, she turned towards Erin and Ellie who were waiting impatiently, 'Woman...fat....' G tried to explain but her voice trailed off, she was too scared to continue. 'That giantess? Oh! She dirty my boots!' Erin shouted pointing at her shiny black boots which was smeared with a little dust. Abby grinned broadly at Danielle, 'It is funny how we pissed her off,' Danielle nodded laughing with agreement.

While they chattered happily with the beer in their hand, I stepped in with my gaudy clothes. Alice smirked at me, while the rest just glanced at me. I draw out my gun quick and fast and fire at Alice. Alice jumped behind the bar, grabbing her gun. 'Hey! Outside!' The old man shouted, he lifted his fist at us. I ran outside followed by Alice, she fired some shots at me while I was running. 'You will never win, no matter how hard you try because I always win!' Alice yelled out, intimidating me. I spun around and shot her gun off her arm, I smiled pleased with myself while she smile sheepishly. 'You wouldn't shoot and unarmed person right?' Alice grinned at me. Silent, I pointed the gun at her and slowly pull the trigger...bam! I aimed to miss, ' Well? Do you consider me winning this time?' I asked putting the gun back into the holster.

Shit and Sheet, so confusing.

'May I have a shit of paper?' Oops, did I just swear? Of course I did, while I tried my best, Amy and Stacey would laugh with pleasure. Amy told me not to change my way of speaking because it is good. She wish she could do that but I don't think it is appropriate for me to keep doing that. With Stacey help of course it was such a failure I didn't get to get it right. Only once. After that, I seek for Nicole helps, another failure.

Youtube, it has everything in it. I learnt it from some woman but I don't know whether it is right. I think it is best I ask someone to help me. Ah! Seek Alice and Terri for help in business management class. I assured Stacey that I would get it right by tomorrow and I wouldn't want her to be grinning would I? What I mean is that I want me myself to be grinning at them with success. It is always okay to make mistake that is where I can learn from it. Hey! My english ain't that perfect, I have to learn how to speak chinese and malay too, so how am I suppose to learn the pronunciations of english. No time for that in Malaysia or else you will be failing everything.

A new hairstyle?

I was wondering whether that if I cut my hair should I change my hairstyle since I been having this hairstyle since I was 10? 11? Oh I don't know all I know I have been having this same hairstyles since I was like real young.

I guess Alice was right, you shouldn't worry about changing your appearance or stuff like that, all you have to do it just go for it. Who cares about what people say. Yeah I should go for it....maybe...nah I will wait a little longer and get opinions from people on what type of hairstyles I should go for.

Athletics day and first day of badminton training

I was eating all the throughout athletics sport day, gosh I am going to be so fat. Anyway, Alice went around spraying people with her deodorant, the worst thing is that she sprays it at people's armpit. She held the deodorant very near to the shirt so it looks like you get a wet stain on it. So Alice spray it real near people's armpit which make people looks like they have sweaty armpits. She learnt it from Abby, she did it on G's shirt so it makes her looks like she have sweaty armpits. We were laughing so hard but G just kept talking and talking.

While they took part in the sports, I watch. I watch how they went for the 200m run and Alice was running with her 'V' outfit and she ran like a stiff stick, while G was right in front of the rest. After the 200m run they went to partake in the shot put. G chuck it right at the net which is near her side. I think everyone was cracking up down there, while I was cracking up up there alone.

Badminton training, there was only eight of us. We went on training on our footworks and holding the badminton in the right way. The badminton trainer was a canterbury coach, so it was pretty good. I like the training so I am planning to go again next week.

In church with a cold.

My nose kept running, it was so annoying. I kept going in the toilet, blowing my nose but it doesn't help at all. So instead of attending the service, I stayed in the toilet, texting and blowing my nose. I also sort of gave Debbie a headache after giving her all sort of excuses to skip the source first meeting. I hope I am fine tomorrow since tomorrow is such a long day.

Physics ain't that bad after all

Physics is actually quite fun, only on Friday. I had fun watching the empty bottle going with a blast like a rocket. Fun and interesting, funny part is how I watch some girls jump as the bottle goes off with a bam! The fifth bottle got stuck on the tree and Mr Sadler climb the tree like a monkey man. Some were taking a video of him climbing the tree, others were just watching him. Probably what I love about physics is the experiment and all.

I think I can stand it for one year, I will just go with the flow, God always has a way.

My biggest fear

I am probably a wee bit different from other girls. You know girls biggest fear are like, insects or animals or probably something else. Mine biggest fear...the fear of people hating me. I don't know why, but I hate making enemies, that is why I am sort of shy and quiet. Probably I thought, quiet is part of the solution for me in not making enemies, but I might be wrong.

I always have the wrong things in my mind, my every day question is 'does she hates me?' I know I shouldn't worry about petty things but that stuff keeps bugging me. Ever since I came to New Zealand I became more talkative, well that is what my Malaysian friends said. With that stupid little question coming up, there will be a whole lot of drama in my mind. You know in tv where you see a little angle and a little devil sitting on your shoulder, one persuading you to do the right, one persuading you to do the bad. My mine was somehow like that you know, but different of course I don't have that two little people sitting on my shoulder. I think because I have the attitude of 'I care too much'. I care too much about what people say, what people thinks and even caring about other people's life. I am a crazy person!! I am psycho! But you can't be perfect, you know. I guess, wherever you go there will be someone saying 'hey! she looks bitchy' or 'hey! she is too quiet'. I wish I could please everyone, but I am not a pleaser, I can't please everyone.

I shouldn't worry too much, my new year resolution is such a failure but I think I must still work on what I haven't been working on. I have to push myself harder and have positive thinking in everything.

Damn the Damp

Wetness all around, this leads to a cold defile weather. Not pleasing at all, and it made my day worst. The gloomy sky, the gray clouds hid the sunshine of happiness. Physics was worst, I don't understand and I told Mrs Garland Brown that I wanted to quit physic but she told me to stay in that class a few more days. See how it goes because most of the class I wanted to go into is full!! Well that made my whole day worst, literally. I guess if I can't get in I have to be strong and try to be a wee bit smarter to understand the whole thing about physics. It is all in God's hands, I guess I have to leave it all to God.

Coming back, just because I flip up my phone in accident and my brother goes all hysteria just because I accidently picked his phone up. Jeez, he goes all the way nagging through the whole journey. Of course I got really annoyed and I kept telling him it is an accident, but with his lack of trust in me (it is normal) he kept yelling and wanted to snatch my cellphone from my hands. With the water bottle in my hand I threaten to spill it on him if he don't stop snatching my cellphone from me. Now he is still nagging and threatening to revenge, oh whatever, I don't want to argue with him.

Happy Chinese New Year and Valentines Day!

Chinese New Year is here! But sadly no 'ang pau' are given to us. New Zealand don't celebrate CNY as crazy as Malaysia.

Well, I went out for dinner with some of the church families and friends. We ate chinese food, wasn't as awesome as malaysia's food after you just came back from Malaysia. Well, got to go and read 'Lord of the flies' I have to finish chapter 1 by tomorrow and I am not even half way through it.

I just pierce my ears.

Well, the title says it all, I just pierce my ears. doesn't hurt the first time but after a while it started to hurt. Oh well, that's all I got to tell you all.

Piercing done? Everyone was like ants bite, no feeling, it is going to be great. My brother said, takes two months for it to heal. I was planning to get it tomorrow but that lady told me to booked it first thing in the morning tomorrow.

Physics is totally a no no for me. I got no interest in it. PE leap here I come or probably not!

Homework and more homeworks.

Physics is really crazy and I don't really understand what the teacher is teaching. The homework is really hard, algebra, gosh I am already studying algebra in maths and I am struggling to understand it already. So I was like stuck at a hard maths question for like thirty minutes or more. Calculating and recalculating, ask my brother for help and I don't really understand what he was talking about.

Biology was silly but fun. We went out of class and went to measure 50 photinia leaves for the investigation. Leaves after leaves we put our ruler out stretch across the blade of the leaf, we just guess the length of it not even bothering to pull the bend leaf straight. After biology, maths was next. I arrive slightly too early, without knowing how early I was I just pulled the door open and barged in. I was dreaming until I saw the whole class with the teacher staring at me, I ran out of the class real fast and Dayna was laughing behind. Sheesh, was an embarrassment.

I went to meet mrs Garland Brown today, telling her how I can't cope in Physics, I couldn't change my subject yet because I just had only two classes, she said it wasn't enough. She said I should actually join another two classes to see whether I could cope with it. But I definitely sure that I am going to change it.

Swimming sports

Boring day, way...way boring than classes. You just sit there and watch people swim, I was yawning almost all the way. I wish I could just sleep in my lovely bed. But at least this year, I have friends to roam around with. G, Abby, Alice, Danielle and more were sitting beside me, of course they were like yakking all the way. G was sitting beside me and most of the time I was alone with her because we can't swim and the others were like in the pool having their fun there. G said I was random, guess this is my usual self huh. Even the Malaysian people thinks I am weird, oh well, being weird is special. After having conversation with G, I was thinking about dropping physics. That subject is really boring, what I mean is that it is sort of hard and all about electricity and it is dead boring. I think I couldn't cope much with three sciences since I am not a genius. I planned that I should take up PE leap, sort of miss the exercising and stuff like that. I wish I could change my english class, most of the people in there are real noisy. I miss my old english class, they were better and fun although they were quite noisy.

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Never fulfill

When you are in school, there are whole lots of homework chuck at your face; you just wish you were at home relaxing.

When you are at home relaxing, there are just so much free time, you got nothing to do; you just wish you were in school.

I can't even get my own happiness over this petty things. So today, I plan to find happiness in every thing, even in moments of sadness. But can I do it? Oh well, I will just try my best.

I am back to my old self! I love the subjects that took this year, it is just the part where I sit alone. Classes where I sit alone: Physics, English and Maths.

Actually I don't sit alone in Maths and Physics. It is just that I don't know the people that sit with me. They babbles; I dream. That is what I do. English is the worst, how come every one in my class is so noisy? I don't even dare to make my speech anymore. I just have to pluck up the courage to make a fast 4 minutes speech, oh...and it is on shakespears...I would be speechless!

It is great that they love the key chains. I got such a bad feeling that they would say 'ugh! ugly!' Or probably they said that in their mind. What the heck is wrong with you Livia, remember happiness. It took me days to figure out what they love. I was planning to get them some necklace or earrings or rings, but I realized my taste just ain't good enough for them. I mean I might end up picking an ugly ring up or earrings or necklace. So I plan to get them key chains, I thought key chains were too small. Well, I still ended up buying key chains and it is a sea shell key chain with their name on it. After I bought it I realized NZ has a beach which is beautiful but is their any sea shells there? Alice said she has heaps of sea shell and I was like 'crap!'. But since she love it so it is fine. I realized another thing, never ever let Alice hug you, you will die from suffocation.

The start of school, again....

It was a boring first day. Welcoming the new headmistress of the school, I don't even know what was going on, just sit and stand following the crowd, consider it my work out for today. Abby and G was like 'OH it is Livia!! Got any photos?' I told them I do but didn't bring it. I will bring it on monday and the Malaysian food. So Alice you better come to school on Monday or you won't be able to try one. I asked G about the seashells, I asked whether they will like it but all I heard was mumbling. So I guess she doesn't like it, oh! I will just bring it for the other two though. But if they hate it I shall keep it for myself.

The popular 'G' is just so popular. During the house orientation, everyone will squeeze beside her, rushing for a sit beside her. Sometimes I got 'push' away, ending up at the far end. But I am fine with that thing, just grab one seat and you will be fine. I learn that from the first time I came to New Zealand. Being a loner is just fine sometimes, because there are some good things will happen if you are alone. For example, appreciate your lonely time because if there are crowds around you, you will love to be alone. And you might be able to make new friends, well, that is how I made my friends. Of course if there is a chance I will sit beside G, but most of the time she waved me into the seat beside her. Oh well, got to wash the dishes.